As you can tell from the title, there has been some news that has been rough to handle, some more difficult than others. Mainly two things happened recently. First, David was laid off from his job because they couldn't afford to keep him. A little good news came out of that however; they were impressed with his ethic and he was definitely re-hirable. They also told him that come February will be the new fiscal year for them and if there are any positions open he would be the first they called.
Now on to the more recent, more emotionally hard to write about. As some of you might know, we've been trying for a family. We knew that God was telling us we would start a family here in Cincinnati, so we've been doing what we can and I've been trying to naturally help my body heal and increase progesterone. There have been a few times we thought "this might be it" but it wasn't, but this time was even harder to deal with. I'd never been this late before, and there were other signs-or rather non-signs- that this time might really be for real. Then today my body told me otherwise. I don't know if it was a miscarriage or not, but something happened that leads me more towards it than away. I keep thinking "it's not fair" because my thinking had even changed to way I'd never thought before, and I thought maybe that was God's way of saying it was real this time. I feel like my body keeps tricking me and then getting revenge by giving me pain for the rest of the day. It's really hard to trust God right now; I still do, but each time this happens I'm more and more confused. I wish I could find out if there's any other reason I'm having such trouble, but frankly we just can't afford it.
I'm sorry if some of that didn't make much sense, I'm still kind of down about it. I feel like giving up, but I know I can't. Emotionally I want to give up, physically I don't, mentally I don't know what I think.
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Merry Christmas
I know it's a couple of days late, but I was with family. I had a great Christmas this year, and I hope everyone else did too. I got a lot of really cool stuff, including a Red's hoodie, Doctor Who stuff, a gluten free cookbook, a writing book and workbook, and gift cards. We got to spend time with both families (his and mine), and yeah it was a day late, but it snowed yesterday.
Working in retail this Christmas has made it really hard for me to get into the true meaning of Christmas, but it was achieved. I hope all of you remembered what Christmas really stands for, Christ's birth. I learned this year that the word Christmas literally means "Christmasse" or Christ's Mass. However, working in retail, I had the chance to make the little difference I could by saying "Merry Christmas" to all the customers, and more than once I had people say "Thanks for saying Merry Christmas". It made me feel good to know that there's still people out there who don't care about political correctness.
Speaking of work, this will be my last couple of days in the shoe department; however, next week I will be in accessories, which should be fun. And hopefully David will know soon whether or not he will be kept on as a regular employee. I was told they have until February to decide if they want to keep me or not. Whether that is the beginning or the end, I'm not sure.
Now that the Christmas season is over and we are in the home stretch of the new year, I pray that God's will will be done in our lives and everyone else's lives. I pray that everyone will have a prosperous year and that God will do miracles and wonders in yours and our lives.
Working in retail this Christmas has made it really hard for me to get into the true meaning of Christmas, but it was achieved. I hope all of you remembered what Christmas really stands for, Christ's birth. I learned this year that the word Christmas literally means "Christmasse" or Christ's Mass. However, working in retail, I had the chance to make the little difference I could by saying "Merry Christmas" to all the customers, and more than once I had people say "Thanks for saying Merry Christmas". It made me feel good to know that there's still people out there who don't care about political correctness.
Speaking of work, this will be my last couple of days in the shoe department; however, next week I will be in accessories, which should be fun. And hopefully David will know soon whether or not he will be kept on as a regular employee. I was told they have until February to decide if they want to keep me or not. Whether that is the beginning or the end, I'm not sure.
Now that the Christmas season is over and we are in the home stretch of the new year, I pray that God's will will be done in our lives and everyone else's lives. I pray that everyone will have a prosperous year and that God will do miracles and wonders in yours and our lives.
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Good News For Now
In my last post I was dealing with issues that were confusing me and left me wondering. Thankfully I have answers now.
My manager talked to me about my scorecard-basically all my stats that tell how I'm doing. Overall I did great, making more than my goal in pretty much all areas. When he brought up the holiday positions ending, I paid even more attention. He told me that on the 29th, the shoes holiday position would be closed, but on the 30th, I would be able to pick up shifts in other areas of the store. So I guess that means they are keeping me on as a regular flex associate for right now. I don't know how long that will last, but hey at least that means they're keeping me on for the time being!
David's situation isn't quite sorted out just yet, but there is an easy explanation for some of it. He's usually scheduled about 30 or so hours, but this week he was only scheduled for three days, which worried us a little. Thankfully the reason behind that was that someone else who had been working there for a while goes to the University of Cincinnati, and now that he is on break they gave him more hours.
I think that's all I have so far, but right now I'm really into reading and working on my story, which might be transforming into something more than a short story. I just have to work on where I want it to go. By the way, the author I'm really liking right now is Jeffery Deaver. He writes mystery/suspense novels and short stories, which I read for both enjoyment and ideas.
My manager talked to me about my scorecard-basically all my stats that tell how I'm doing. Overall I did great, making more than my goal in pretty much all areas. When he brought up the holiday positions ending, I paid even more attention. He told me that on the 29th, the shoes holiday position would be closed, but on the 30th, I would be able to pick up shifts in other areas of the store. So I guess that means they are keeping me on as a regular flex associate for right now. I don't know how long that will last, but hey at least that means they're keeping me on for the time being!
David's situation isn't quite sorted out just yet, but there is an easy explanation for some of it. He's usually scheduled about 30 or so hours, but this week he was only scheduled for three days, which worried us a little. Thankfully the reason behind that was that someone else who had been working there for a while goes to the University of Cincinnati, and now that he is on break they gave him more hours.
I think that's all I have so far, but right now I'm really into reading and working on my story, which might be transforming into something more than a short story. I just have to work on where I want it to go. By the way, the author I'm really liking right now is Jeffery Deaver. He writes mystery/suspense novels and short stories, which I read for both enjoyment and ideas.
Friday, December 14, 2012
Life is Confusing
I know it's been a few weeks (again), but I have been busy and making good progress in different areas in life. However, certain aspects of those areas are confusing me and I'm unsure of some things right now. Sorry if that doesn't make much sense but I will explain.
First, work has been going well. I'm getting a good number of hours, selling lots of shoes, making my goals plus more, and my name was even on a paper on the wall for what they call "shining stars". I got a lot of points, which basically means I'm good at my job. At least that's what someone told me. That makes me happy. Now this is what confuses me- my schedule is on the computer, and normally I am given two days to work, and I pick the rest. The chosen days should have been today, but there was nothing there. I called HR and they told me if there's nothing available, then it doesn't give me anything. I thought that was strange, seeing as this schedule was for the week of Christmas. I go to the site for work, and I see a message saying there are still hours open for two days, one of which I should have been automatically scheduled for, but wasn't. I'm sure it will work out, I'm just confused at the moment. I also don't know how long I will be employed there, if at all, after the holidays.
On that note, I've been putting my resume out on the web so companies can look at it, so I can hopefully get a job in what I really want to do-write. Since I have had so many customer service positions, I have been receiving emails and phone calls from different companies in different aspects of customer services, none of which I believed I was qualified for. I'm honestly not sure what my response will or should be.
David and I are still hoping that he will keep his job at Sears, although we have some reason to believe otherwise, but hoping it's just a rumor.
My writing has been going really well now that I'm on my medicine. My short story is beginning to have the potential to become a book, and I keep thinking of stuff to include so I'm happy. I just wish I could find work related to my passion.
We have been window shopping online for apartments, just to see what's out there and what we can afford. Can't wait till we can actually go look at potential apartments.
The only thing we are still waiting on is having a family. Really not sure if there is anything different to say on that. Or anything else to say. We are still trying, I'm still on my gluten free diet, and am taking vitamins to help with the progesterone. I still feel like it's gonna be our time soon, I just don't know when "soon" is right now.
First, work has been going well. I'm getting a good number of hours, selling lots of shoes, making my goals plus more, and my name was even on a paper on the wall for what they call "shining stars". I got a lot of points, which basically means I'm good at my job. At least that's what someone told me. That makes me happy. Now this is what confuses me- my schedule is on the computer, and normally I am given two days to work, and I pick the rest. The chosen days should have been today, but there was nothing there. I called HR and they told me if there's nothing available, then it doesn't give me anything. I thought that was strange, seeing as this schedule was for the week of Christmas. I go to the site for work, and I see a message saying there are still hours open for two days, one of which I should have been automatically scheduled for, but wasn't. I'm sure it will work out, I'm just confused at the moment. I also don't know how long I will be employed there, if at all, after the holidays.
On that note, I've been putting my resume out on the web so companies can look at it, so I can hopefully get a job in what I really want to do-write. Since I have had so many customer service positions, I have been receiving emails and phone calls from different companies in different aspects of customer services, none of which I believed I was qualified for. I'm honestly not sure what my response will or should be.
David and I are still hoping that he will keep his job at Sears, although we have some reason to believe otherwise, but hoping it's just a rumor.
My writing has been going really well now that I'm on my medicine. My short story is beginning to have the potential to become a book, and I keep thinking of stuff to include so I'm happy. I just wish I could find work related to my passion.
We have been window shopping online for apartments, just to see what's out there and what we can afford. Can't wait till we can actually go look at potential apartments.
The only thing we are still waiting on is having a family. Really not sure if there is anything different to say on that. Or anything else to say. We are still trying, I'm still on my gluten free diet, and am taking vitamins to help with the progesterone. I still feel like it's gonna be our time soon, I just don't know when "soon" is right now.
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